Study day!

It's freezing cold outside in new York today, so it's actually quite
cozy to curl up in the couch with a cup of tea being (somewhat)
productive!
Happy Monday ;)

Just say Yes!

I'm supposed to have a study day today..trying hard to focus on my finance homework but can't stop listening to this amazing song by snow patrol..
My life has taken some strange turns over the last few weeks but I don't know how much I want to put out there...here.
I wish wish wish I wasn't so drawn to unavailability. It's as if yet again what nurtures me destroys me..my love life at the moment...My relationship with Mr W..I love it cant live without it but it is destroying me. Just like New York. Sometimes I feel that the innocense I lost to New York is forever lost...the city feeds my soul at the same time as it weakens it...it's a life I oly dreamed of but no one ever tells you the backside of it all. You can have it all but you will fall in traps along the way..I am desperately searching for that golden path to all I ever dreamed of..Oh well..suddenly I just got into a way deeper conversation than I had in mind..gah. I should be studying cash flow statements and liquidity ratios right now..



I'm running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won't be ok and I won't pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand
Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love
It's so simple and you know it is
You know it is,
We can't be to and fro like this
All our lives
You're the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For Gods sake, dear

Just say yes, coz Im aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in
I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
Its all I want

Testing

Sent from my iPhone

Concert state of mind

Went to see Fever Ray last night at Webster Hall. Awesome. Absolutely loved it, Love them. Wow wow wow. I go to way too few shows these days! I promised myself that when I moved back to Nw York I would take advantage of the city in more ways and see more plays and shows and stuff that you cant see anywhere else or dont have as easy of an access to in other places.



Aren't they amazing?




God..I love this city....New York I love you!

Change of heart

Amazing how things can change in a day or two..and how if you communicate clearly enough it sometimes makes a difference...

Giving it another shot with Mr W..time will tell how things will go between us I suppose...But I will give him a chance to do it right and if he cant I will move on. I hav to. I refuse to have anymore weeks of trying to make something work. It shouldnt have to be idfficult. It should flow! Shouldnt it?

My mood...