loooove it...

Lying hungover in my bed...but last night was such a good night..went to a friends bday party knowing that id run into a lot of people from the past..people i didnt really want to see but maybe needed to see for my own sake. people i dont really like, who have hurt me or made me feel stupid in some way. I feel so fucking good about it today weirdly enough. i got some closure..sure as hell got some revenge by just not caring and having these people caring about things still..trying trying trying so hard. Im not the kind of person who holds a grudge but seriously i just love revenge..haha. aaah..dont you just love when youre on top? i dont want to go into too much detail but today is a good day. i even called in sick at work. fuck it all..im having a "me day"

Heres a picture from last night with my friend robert who had the birthday party

the hills!

got stuck at the gym forever watching the hills!! they had som run through of last season before the new season started so I was stuck watching the thing for like 2 hours.... its so bad yet so good. Love it...

On another note it seems gym guy has returned after a months break from gumming. Wow..just the fact that I know that:
1. Makes me proud because that means I have actually started a habit of going to the gym which I've stuck to for the longest time in my life (almost 3 months)
2. Feel slightly pathetic for knowing such a thing since it screams " I don't have a life"


So i think im going to try to write a little more ofteb..Haha...well the last few weeks have been very weird for me in both good and bad ways. I have however come to the conclusion that I need to think less about stuff to keep my sanity in this crazy world of mine! Or maybe just vent to you guys..

Waiting for my life to change!

It seems that lately I have been getting so much attention from anyone and everyone. but never from the people i'd like to get it from. see..i have had so many old friends and flames and exes contact me randomly these last couple of weeks..it seems that it's that time of year when people get nostalgic and want to talk.

as for me...there's just one person I'd like to see and talk to. and he's been out of town and out of touch forver it seems. im so agitated and annoyed and frustrated...it seems to me that there's someone up there just trying to screw everything up for me. whenver i meet someone he or she (whoever is up there??!!) makes sure that its an asshole or a person whos on vacation, has a girlfriend or he's leaving town or maybe just travels constantly or something like that. i just dont seem destined to meet anyone at all.. oh life in this city can be so hard.

why does it seem to be so much easier everywhere else? here it seems that everyone is so busy making their dreams come true that they forget to treasure the day and enjoy it. It's hard to put your finger on exactly what it is that makes the new yorkers so unavailable and distant..maybe its just that constant ambition and strive towards wealth that makes everyone self centered and stressed out? There are lots of things I love about this town..but thats not on the list.

satc quote- so true for me right now!

Just saw this quote on my friends facebook page and I feel like this is what every single one of my single friends are talking about right now..Including myself. I think unfortunately I mig be Miranda in this litte dialogue.

“Carrie: I don't know my own view of the future. I think I'm possibly one bad date away from bitter. Don't you think that I'm getting a little cynical?

Miranda: Not compared to me.”

Spring in new york?

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> Just took a walk in central park at lunch!!! Can't wait for spring
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quotes quotes quotes

"every new beginning begins out of some other beginnings end"...

Just a little quote from supersonic. I thought it was very fitting for me at the moment!!

A new day

And today I woke up with excitement. A good thing I have lived in this city long enough to know that it comes down to playing the game or get played. Ive defintely done both. this week has been a roller coaster ride experiencing both. I'm now back in the game because I was playing the game form the beginning. Oh god...why does life have to be so complicated? Anyways, I'm glad I know what I now know and from this moment on I know who I will be putting more energy on and whom I wont! :)

Anger...

Woke up with a strange angry feeling this morning. I had no idea what was wrong..just wasn’t feeling it today. Was a little hungover from last night too so I blamed that.
Go on to work..still pissed off but have no idea about why..then I get the news. Staring me right in the eye. And it was like I had known before I found out. I have now seriously lost all trust that there are any really good guys out there. New York. So fucked up. My life. So fucking ridiculous.

Can't even say Im sad. Just fucking pissed off with the direction things have gone...

Dinner with my "idol" :)

Going to meet up with my sisters friend Elin today. She has always done a lot of crazy fun things that I have been jealous of. She went off and travelled in australia, before I did. Then she backpacked which I went on to do too. Then she strated studying advertising which was a dream of mine for a while which I also went on to do before I moved to New york to study fashion marketing and management instead.
Anywaaays...She is staying at the Hudson Hotel so we're going to eat dinner there. She is in New York for a few days before she moves to the Cayman Islands..doesn't that sound amazing? just moving to the cayman islands for a top job??I'm sort of jealous so I'm going to ask her all about it..it just seems like such a crazy fun thing to do right?! Sjhe was offered the job a few months ago and just jumped at the chance and now she's on her way. Top salary, no taxes, housing everything..and not to forget: amazing exotic weather! Wow.

Not that I'm looking to leave New York right now but on those cold winter days the Cayman islands sound like a dream come true...

So I'm excited about tonight!

Work work work..

So work is still the same..I'm kind of a little bored right now so I thought I'd write a few sentences! I might be bored but in all honestly I'm still happy. God I cant even begin to tell you about how nice it is to feel happy after my little winter depression. I wake up every day content and I really think it reflects in everything I do and everyone I meet. It's been a good couple of weeks..!

Getting a new room mate any day now. Should be interesting to see how that works out!

More Miami

Sara and monia enjoying some drinks in the sun...

Already missing the sun!

Ah just looking at some pictures from our days make me long back. I
could never live in Miami but I could certainly have stayed another
week...

Good times!!!

Had such a great long weekend in Miami! Burnt my back legs and belly
but I'm. Still happy..I really really needed that sun! Here I am in
the apt we were staying in with monia..

Ready for a good time!

Sara and I on our way out of the flamingo! Monia: Just take the pic
and lets party!

getting ready in the airport! :)

In the airport waiting for our third partner in crime!!! Monia arrives two hours after us.

Sara in miami

Gucci baby

Got some cute stuff at the gucci sample sale today!!!

Bursting!

I'm dying to write about all of the interesting turns my life has taken lately. So many unexpected things have happened over such a short period of time..it's been so weird! I feel really strange and I can't help but be very very happy with how great things are! Problem is..lots of things that are going on right now are things i really shouldnt be writing about..for some reasons. There are people in my life that I can't talk about..things that have happened in general that are also just going to have t be off the record.so i guess ill have to just shout out my happiness like this..by just telling you guys that after rain comes sun..and i feel like it was raining on me for a pretty long time..not in every aspect of my life but some parts were just always in need of something like this.

Loving Life...

So...my life has yet again taken some crazy turns.. I don't even know if I should talk about it here because it's been so insane.

I keep thinking about how much I love New York lately. I have to figure out a way to stay..spring is here..so many things are happening and I am having so much fun! I have had work dinners, crazy party nights with old friends and quiet dinners with friends..even dates..and thats where I'll stop because I don't want to jinx anything by blabbing about it.. :)

Miami in 2 days. Looking forward!!!

Crazy days

I'm sorry that I have been writing less lately. I have just had some
really crazy days. I feel like I've just been living life a little too
precautiously lately so i recently stepped things up a bit and its
been so well worth it. Just taking risks and living it up is what we
should all do.

Cause at the end of the day I don't have that much to loose.

I have been up to som pretty fantastically stupid and fun adventures
lately. Just letting go of old sorrows, trying new things...seeing
where life and love takes me ;)

Now um on my way out to meet some old friends from boarding school who
are in town!

Ciao