Waiting for my life to change!

It seems that lately I have been getting so much attention from anyone and everyone. but never from the people i'd like to get it from. see..i have had so many old friends and flames and exes contact me randomly these last couple of weeks..it seems that it's that time of year when people get nostalgic and want to talk.

as for me...there's just one person I'd like to see and talk to. and he's been out of town and out of touch forver it seems. im so agitated and annoyed and frustrated...it seems to me that there's someone up there just trying to screw everything up for me. whenver i meet someone he or she (whoever is up there??!!) makes sure that its an asshole or a person whos on vacation, has a girlfriend or he's leaving town or maybe just travels constantly or something like that. i just dont seem destined to meet anyone at all.. oh life in this city can be so hard.

why does it seem to be so much easier everywhere else? here it seems that everyone is so busy making their dreams come true that they forget to treasure the day and enjoy it. It's hard to put your finger on exactly what it is that makes the new yorkers so unavailable and distant..maybe its just that constant ambition and strive towards wealth that makes everyone self centered and stressed out? There are lots of things I love about this town..but thats not on the list.