New York New York

I am going to New York on friday again..I'm kind of excited about it...especially now that I have decided to move back I am almost restless being on the island. It is wonderful being here in every way but I keep finding myself longing back to that familiar city life.

Lately I have had some problems sleeping and I have kind of started thinking about the past..for the longest time I have been so convinced that Mr. Model was so wrong for me..suddenly a few days ago I started thinking about him again and I can't shake that feeling of missing him. I know its weird but in the light of everything and after all of the emotional roller coaster rides I have been on he some how sort of stands out as the one that means the most..he is the closest man I have..and that kind of says a lot. Because were not close.
Mr big - hell no. I m happy I'm finally over him..Mr Ambitious..well he just seems a little two faced and too proud for his own good. Besides, I always tried to like him more than I actually did...
I think in reality I would just like to meet someone completely new. And i'd like to start over completely once I make my final move over I will make sure that I make the most of everything and dont let myself get wrapped up in superficiality and assholes. It will be a new beginning and I am going to make sure I cut all bad influences out. that includes mr. Model I think...

Yeah.