Blast from the past

Interesting Hamptons weekend..got a few proposals actually :) hahaha..obv. drunken ones!!! got back last night.

Most interesting though was running in to good old Mr Ambitious..if anyone remembers him we had a rollercoaster relationship right before I left for Cayman and I havent seen him in..like 1 year and 2 months or something like that. At first I freezed and panicked because I didnt know what to say but then I just relaxed and we both kind of looked at eachother at the same time so we had to kind of walk up and talk... so we talked for a bit. I was never in love with him, but I loved him somehow. He was a safe sweet good guy and in retrospect I know I was probaby the worst girl he could have found! I was allover the place, my emotions were running wild and i was obsessing about Mr Big..it was just one of the most chaotic times of my life and Mr Ambitious was a rock for the time being. Anyways, It was nice to run into him. Meeting him reminded me of a lot of things. Mostly about how much I actually like him as a person still....And it made me think a little bit about how far I have come this past year. It's a nice feeling to look back and know that you are in a much better place now..but at the same time it bothers me a little bit that he probably wont get to know the normal nicer less self centered less chaotic me because I genuinely would like to have him as a friend. But hey, it happens. (paris +ex :) )

Tired today..Mr Workaholic made an unexpected trip to my place late last night. Very out of character for him. But I definitely appreciated the nightly company even if he had to leave at 6am to wooooooork again... :(