Shouldn't have to be a reason for you to apologize..

So much for being on top. So much for thinking some people can change..so much for hoping...

I'm so sick and tired of people apoligizing to me..here's an extract of a song from Tayolr Swift that I feel kind of speak to me right now..SHE'S talking about infidelity.I'M talking about people who continuosuly break you down, continue to hurt you and you keep giving them chances and I have had enough. Mr Big:

I shouldn't be asking myself why
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet...

And baby you know all the right things: to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same...
You say that the past is the past, you need one chance


Or even more fitting from Taylor Swift:

I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry,

And Mr Workaholic has gotten so much better at everything..just a few little kinks I'd like to straighten out there..but that can wait..as long as we are making progress which we are. I guess maybe I needed to just know that Mr Big is never worth ruining my good relationships for..THat's the second time I have had him in the middle of it all same thing with Mr Ambitious..I had to have that little pice of excitement..that little asshole on the side that kept me on the edge..
Well times are diffeent now. This ws the last time and I don't even like Mr Big the way I used to..this was more about just getting back up on top of him and I failed it again I guess..or I dont know..he just proved to me that he is the same that he always has been and I wont take it anymore. there are no more chances to be given out.Its just not worth it on any level.