Another point of view..

I just wanted to say that surprising enough I woke up with a big smile this morning. The whole "decision making problem" is I might not be able to stay in New York after the summer because my Visa expires and it doesn't look like there's a way of renewing it...last night it felt like the end of my world. But today when I woke up there was something that just made me feel at ease...there is something weird about me..I like to move around..I like to go to new places so this might just mean a new adventure.Today it feels like a new beginning. Belive me..there is not one part of me that wants to leave this city..but there are parts of me who need to move, go somewhere else and find something new. I could live in New York my whole life and always find something new..but it's still always going to be the same..do I make any sense at all?

Anyways..everything in my life is up in the air and I just have these butterflies in my stomach..the world is open to me. I can do whatever I want to do..and today is whatever I want it to be..I can be angry or sad or I can be happy..and I'm choosing the later.

Had an amazing workout session at the gym this morning where I just pumped all of my energy in to the workout..which I never do..It just felt good. I feel good.