Happy New Year!

I'm in New York for New Year and I am sitting at this cute litte cafe with my new Macbook air looking out at the big crowds trying to make their way to Times Square to see the ball drop. It's 4pm and theyre alrady going there..Crazy..I would never.. haha.
Were doing dinner an dthen partying at Cipriani at 42nd which should be fun..who knows.
Its nice to be back in the city. I spent last week in Sweden which was great as well. I am faced with some really hard decisions to make regarding my future..and i'll have to make them like tomorrow..as a start of the new year I suppose.

Oh another new year..I wonder what this new year will bring? I really do... I wonder where I'll be? Will I decide to move to New York or Stockholm? Where will my life go? God..It's such a difficult decision to make considering all of the different circumstances..
I relly wish it was simpler..

But for this new year whatever happens...I hope that it becomes a happy one, a year filled with love and laughter..
I have some resolutions which I hope I can keep..

Until Next year!
XOXO

Packing.................

Packing packing packing..isnt this just my life? I mean I'm complaining but I'm also not. I wouldn't trade my life for anything..I'm happy I get to travel all the time and I never get bored..but i feel like I'm constantly packing repacking- and well packing up my life;;which im kind of doing now..kind of preparing to take a lot of stuff home with me and not bring it back..leaving Cayman in february but going to New York and Sweden now for a few weeks. then back to Cayman for the final weeks..crazy crazy..but im excited about it all actually. It's been a crazy crazy year..in every way..I have been allover the map..its been amazing and fun and emotionally just crazy..but its been really amazing.

New York New York

I am going to New York on friday again..I'm kind of excited about it...especially now that I have decided to move back I am almost restless being on the island. It is wonderful being here in every way but I keep finding myself longing back to that familiar city life.

Lately I have had some problems sleeping and I have kind of started thinking about the past..for the longest time I have been so convinced that Mr. Model was so wrong for me..suddenly a few days ago I started thinking about him again and I can't shake that feeling of missing him. I know its weird but in the light of everything and after all of the emotional roller coaster rides I have been on he some how sort of stands out as the one that means the most..he is the closest man I have..and that kind of says a lot. Because were not close.
Mr big - hell no. I m happy I'm finally over him..Mr Ambitious..well he just seems a little two faced and too proud for his own good. Besides, I always tried to like him more than I actually did...
I think in reality I would just like to meet someone completely new. And i'd like to start over completely once I make my final move over I will make sure that I make the most of everything and dont let myself get wrapped up in superficiality and assholes. It will be a new beginning and I am going to make sure I cut all bad influences out. that includes mr. Model I think...

Yeah.

Head over (High) Heels

Ah I like the sound of this new book that is out ow..It's called "Head over (high) heels" by Kristina Korsholm...


Introduction:
Meeting New York City is like meeting the man of your dreams. The compact granite peninsula has everything your heart desires – and more – and its raw, unpolished beauty is striking from first glance. Imperfect, dirty, edgy and noisy – yet a major heartbreaker. New York is the ‘new city’ that, despite its worn appearance, is constantly evolving. And does it get any better than that? I feel welcome here in a way that I don’t anywhere else in the world Here, it’s okay to have a dream and work hard to come within reach of it. New Yorkers are very welcoming to people with dreams and ambitions, and when New York opens her arms to you, it feels as if you’re immortal. When embraced by New York City, anything suddenly becomes possible.
My crush on New York began at age 13, when, daddy in hand, I arrived in the city, wearing stonewashed jeans and a Ball sweatshirt. We went to a wine bar in SoHo, watched the Empire State Building at sunset, experienced the Twin Towers, had sushi on West Broadway and giant ice cream cones on Fifth Avenue, and we went to Central Park. It was love at first sight, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I’d go back to explore this place further. My travels as a model and later writer have brought me to the city several times since then, but not until two years ago did I truly settle down in the city that never sleeps. And believe me – we’re still madly in love.


Now if i could only find out where to buy this book???

Go brit brit!

Listening to Britney Spears new album Circus. Wow, it's sooo much better than Blackout..Loving it!!!

Another photoshoot..

did a photo shoot in New York...

New York again...!

Oh the crazy life I lead. Back from Cuba..had a week back in Cayman then off to New York for a week. It was soo much fun to see everyone again but the weather was killing me. Just a week in the cold and I was soo happy to go back to the tropical climate of Cayman. Brr..It's so hard to imagine how the hell I could stand the cold and dry before..for like..ever! Hahaha..I mean in my life there have been more than a few winters..! hahha..Anyways, I'm happy to be back in the warm weather..but New York was fantastic as usual..there's just something magical about that city..just that feeling that anything can hapen at anytime..just knowing tha theres a whole world of opportunities there in every way.

More from Cuba

Cuba Weekend

I just got back from a weekend trip to Cuba. Cuba is only about 40 minutes away from Cayman but the differences between the two are mind blowing.
This weekend was absolutely heart breaking in a way..I was faced with so many different questions about what is right and what is wrong and I just wanted to share my experience in some way. I think everyone should try to get out and visit poor countries and see for themselves to really appreciate your life. I have never been so grateful for my freedom and for having democracy. We take so many things for granted and we forget and ignore how much there is still to do in the world...

So Cuba...this beautiful island with its beautiful friendly people who are captured in this horrible regime that won't give them any freedom...it's so strange. Just coming off the plane was crazy..there was a group of maybe 100-150 people just staring behind a big gate..staring at the rich tourists who have come to take a look at their lives..to peek at them..the tourists who have hopefully come to learn and teach others from their own world about the injustices..but worst case scenario..they have just come for the big business of prostitution. I don't know..It just seems like a bit of a slap in the face to come visit, when the cubans are not even allowed to travel outside of the country..it is also strange that we come in with our money and our exotic lives to look at their lives which they have no power to change. they are stuck in their poverty and will be punished fro trying to make something off themselves. Punished for hanging out withtourists, punished for speaking their mind. Words cannot express how much I feel that I have learnt iover the weekend just by talking ot people, dancing with people drinking with them and simply watching them and reading up on the politics and history of the country.


It was fun but heart breaking at the same time, becuase you wish you could do something to help them...

Baby you're my disease...

This picture perfectly captures my whole "Rehab for the soul" idea... :)


"It's like I checked in to rehab..baby you're my disease.."

More pics from the shoots...

Thoughts late at night...

Spent a bit of time thinking of Mr Big today..I guess I do when I'm a bit bored. He really sucks and doesn't deserve it..but that song rehab kind of reminds me of him and how I used to feel like I needed to get away and clear my mind off of everything that was him..There's no doubt in my mind that I'm over him now..There's just a piece of me who would have liked things to have ended differently..You know..but don't you always do? I feel like I always do anyway..You just wish certain things could have been said, or maybe you would have liked to have gone out of a relationship with your head held higher or without having said or done a few things. But I cant change what has happened..I can change my future but honestly..the reason I know im over him is I know I'm not even interested in seeing him to clear anything up or talk or anything else. I just..was thinking about him today. He still makes me a little angry..but thats as far as it goes. I dont even know why he makes me angry..maybe because he made me feel used..but thats because i let myself feel that way..I was using him too..but not in the same way.


But being kind of removed from New York and "the scene" has been really good for me and I thank my lucky star for being here on a tropical island right now at this point in my life. I feel like I have somehow come back to my old values and my old self..the person I lost a few months before I left..that desperate lost girl those last few months doesn't feel like me.I don't know what happened..I cant explain it..Anyways..I'm sitting here with a smile thinking back..it wasnt a bad time it was just such a crazy emotional time that I am glad is over. It was like I was constantly fighting to win a race I couldn't win in every aspect of my life..God it was too crazy.


Anyways..Im going back to New York next week and I'm soo excited to see everyone and get back out clubbing..Being here is wonderful and relaxed and just mind boggling at times..the beauty of the nature and the quality of life just gives me so much peace...but then there's always tha big city girl inside whos misses NYC and my friends like crazy. So yeah..very excited to get out and have some fun in my dear old city soon. But first HAVANA - this weekend!

New fave song

LOVE love LOOVE Rihanna's album..Cant believe how many hits shes had from just ONEalbum..You have to check out this video..way dreamy...and Justin Timberlake in it doesn't hurt :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=THQq4bn31WM

Beach shots

Here are some other shots we got....
All are copyright Jodi Jacobson and Aneese.

Underwater shot

Here is one of the pictures we took on Sunday.. I quite Like it..

(Copyright: Jodi Jacobson)

Good Morning

Back in the office drinking my green tea this morning..yesterday was exhausting but fun..I think we got some pretty good shots but I haven't seen all of the pictures yet..I will get them at some point this week, will share them then..ehm..hopefully.

Photo Shoot...

I'm supposed to meet 2 photographer's in a few hours by the way..I'm doing this photoshoot on the beach today..could be fun..I'll put up some pictures if they turn out ok. hahah with my hangover and current "out of shapeness" I probably won't look too good in them...
Maybe I should hit the gym before..hmmm...

Sleepless in Cayman

Good morning my friends..
It's 4.52 am in Cayman right now..I went to bed at 8pm..haha a little too early so I woke up an hour ago and cant go back to sleep. Went on a boat for what they call Pirate's week here yesterday..it was fun but I got really drunk and..yeah passed out at 8..haha..
It was good fun though..I had a blast. Here's a pic from the boat...

I've had a really amazing week..I just feel really really lucky lately..I can't believe what an amazing life I get to live..I live here on this tropical Island and I have all of these amazing trips planned..I just got back from a lovely trip to China with the family and now Ive been back a few weeks but going to Cuba next weekend, then New York, then back to Cayman and then New York and then Stockholm and then New York and then back to Cayman again..so a few weeks of fuun ahead of me.

My alltime favourite from P.D

I just love looking at this picture imagining her life. it's such a beautiful and graceful picture. I love how the light just shines through the window and how you as a viewer look out over what I imagine is New York...

Inspiring...

I am so fascinated by Patrick Demarchelier..I just had to share..I love how he captures the light in all of his pictures..and I love the composition of each photograph and I especially love how he kind of depicts women in such a natural yet sexy and glamorous way. I read somwehre that he never retouches his pictures...even more amazing..He's a master.

Congratulations America

How amazing is it that Obama won the election?? I am so excited and I am so hopeful..Truly a great moment in history..

Heyyyy...

I'm sorry..the last month and half has been super hectic..lots of travelling both with work and on personal trips and you know basically i just have been very busy with the new job, new home, new everything- new life.

But I thought I'd say hi now..I am going to start to write a little bit again! We'll see how exciting it will get..Cayman isnt exactly New York..hahah..but it's a completely different thing..so stay tuned!
xoxo


can you spot me in the corner?! :)

A few more days in the city that never sleeps

I ended up having to stay an extra few days in New York while the immigration office in Cayman is working on getting me my work permit...I t really doesn’t matter much to me at all since I had the chance to get an amazing hotel room in the middle of the city and...in the middle of fashion week which is now on in New york..haha its so nice not to have to work like a maniac during this week for once. I can just enjoy the fun fashion shows and the parties and everything that is going on..
was at a Waverly Inn yesterday for dinner and first comes Nacho the gorgeous polo player..Im like..oh love it..hes so cute..then comes Roberto Cavalli..LOVE..and then Boris Becker..then Lydia Hearst. So Fashion week is definitely in full force.
Its a change form the quit old stocholm..Ah its good to be back.

I’m lying n my bed in my hotel room now. I cant explain why but I just LOVE my room so much. I have now decided that im sooo getting my own studio in the Caymans and this is how im decorating it! hahaha!


Have to jump in the shower now..off to a house party very close to where Mr. big lives..and unfortunately Im really fucking tempted to text him.....he doesn’t know im n town and he has no way of contacting me because I have made sure he doesn’t have my new number.

My horoscope today said that I would regret not taking a chance today..should I or shouldn’t I?? I don’t fucking know...I guess I shouldn’t but then again..a small part of me haven’t completely let him go yet!!! gah...

I'm a Happy Camper!

So I'm back in New York after a short trip to Luxembourg with my new company. It was an interesting trip to say the least but I won't get into more details than that. I can just say that this is defintely a new chapter, and a new career and things are different from the fashion world in both good and bad ways. I am staying with my bff here in New York for a few days while my work permit is worked out for the Cayman Islands.

Have a lot of errands to run today..I think I have to sit down and do a "to do list" si that I dont forget..I only have 2 days to get everything sorted out before the big move.

Now I am off to to a short little stint in our New York office to say hi to the new coworkers and then I have a lunch with my besties! I am soo happy to be back in New York...words can hardly explain. :)

Later!
x

Partyyy

Haven't actually been going out too much since I came from New york but went out in Stockholm last weekend..just found a pic on one of those websites that take pics..thought it was kind of cute ... :)




xxx

Mamma mia!

Just came back from the movies..saw mama mia..it was such a feel good movie..i can recommend it. :)

Thoughts...

The past few days have felt kind of long..I think I am ready to leave now..Kind of ready for something new and exciting..ready to start my new life…I have no idea what to expect but I am getting tired of living in limbo. Right now Im not living my real life..its the longest time I have been in Sweden for like 3 years—im loving spending time with friends and family but I am also getting really really ready to start MY life..right now it seems so vague. What is my real life? I have never even been to the island I am moving to.
I am looking forward though…
Being home for too long almost makes you realize too much..you cant even make excuses anymore..for not seeing certain people or for some people not making an extra effort.its like..wow.you kind of see some things differently..some relationships are stronger than others..when you only ever see people for a very limited time like two times a year its not as clear as it is when you have more time…..friendships come and go..its the reality of life. People change..some for the better some for the worse..and who am I to judge? Simpy…there are friends of mine who aren’t as close as they used to be..there are friends I didn’t see myself drifting apart with and there are friendships who have proven to last and have grown. It is interesting and it is strange..it kind of makes me wonder about a lot of things

Too many thoughts…Need to sleep now..but I am ready to get my life started. I am soo ready.

Closer to my goal!

Had a great weight this morning! Stayed in last night instead of going out..but tonight I'm defintely going so I might ruin the amazing progress.AAhh I love being this motivated..only 2.8kilos left to go!!! This is me on my walk in the forest...its weird..everytime i take a walk I see a swedish celebrity..hahah..like news anchors and famous tv people mostly..but so far its been everytime..what a hotspot!! hahaha

Some office inspiration...

So, I managed to find some inspiring looks at style.com...What I love about fashion is that you can kind of transform yourself into whatever and whoever you want to be for a moment. So right now I'd lke to look like a..chic businesslady.


look 1: Loving the high waisted dressypants paired with a cute top. Even the necklace works..




look 2: Zara, simple and elegant but gorgeous and a little romantic at the same time. Love the blouse and its dreamy sleaves!




look 3: Versace, long cardigan paired with a belt. cute! Also liking the oversized jacket...but im not sure it would look good on me...



look 5:Alexander Wang,loving the pencilskirt and the vest together like that. This kind of look would ofcourse have to be made a lot more appropriate (no ripped stockings and alittle longer skirt).



look 6:Can't rember the designer..think it might be Dsquared. I like the beige dress paired with the cropped jacket. Its classic but with a little twist. Chic! Now..I'l be on a caribbean island..so i dont know how much i'll be wearing stockings and stuff..but I lovvve the black stockings and how they kind of make the look so "autumny", elegant and welldressed.



look 7: Lanvin, pure inspiration. I would never wear those materials to work but i like how theyve paried a dress with a pair of dressy pants like that. its really cute but still classy when you wear it right.


look 8: Versace...loving this simple but elegant dress.Could wear dresses like these in so many variations and colors.

Wow..that was easier said than done.

I dont even know where to begin finding the looks i kind of have in mind..i just started googling and i got so overwhelmed by all the artiles and stuff thats out there...Maybe I'll do it tomorrow instead! ;)

Nighty!

What to wear?

Ive been thinking about how to dress latey,was having this conversation with my sister today..it's hard. All I really want is to dress hippiesh and chic..hahaha..sounds silly but you know..tunics sheer flowy fabrics, light colours..huge sleeves, those flared jeans, big bangles etc..but i realize i will be in banking in 2 weeks and i need to look professional.
So: Ineed to find like jackets and pants and shoes that fits that kind of life! It could be fun irght? I could still try to make it slightly edgy. I'm looking online now. Will return with looks! :)

What about something like this? ;)

I feel great!

Im on my way.I can feel it in every little inch of my body. Finally Im getting that rush. Ever had that rush of knowing you can accomplish something? Just knowing that you'll wake up and things will be great? It might soudn a little bizarre but i love it when im "in the zone"..when im totally devoted to something. This time it's the new me.Right now my diet is going so well and I'm really really really motivated. No I wont turn this into a diet blog..but I almost feel like it. Thats how great I feel!
After only a few days im actually really close to my goal..since this morning I have 3.8 kg to go (8.36 lbs) Its pretty damn close considering i only started a little while ago wanting to loose 7kilos (15.4lbs). So yeees..its going well..and tomorrow is going to be an even better day on the scale.

Ok, Nicky Hilton is a pretty bitchy girl (mhm..and not a very nice sister either- she was making out with stavros niarchos-paris ex- in the bathroom last time i was at One Oak in New York) but she has an amazing body! :)

A new life

So good morning..I thought I'd tell you all about my new conviction. I am going to loose 5 kilos before I head o Luxemburg with work..that leaves me about 11 days to get in top shape. Actually already lost about 2..so I really wanted to loose 7 but hey..

I met up with a friend from new york a few days ago and she was like " oh my boyfriend didnt think id recognize you" I was like ..why not? "oh cause you said you were going to loose all that weight over the summer"..and then it kind of struck me that i had completely forgot about that and now all of my friends in new york think theyre gonna see this amazingly thin girl coming off the plane and the reality is/was another. That got me motivated. I will be back in New York for a few days before I leave for the cayman..and I have these fantasies I'll run into Mr Big and look absoutely great and he wont ever be able to get it again. Hahah. I know I wont run into him but I still kind of use it as my motivation just because. I am getting really motivated by Kate Bosworth also. She is so beautiful.
So Im geting started and Im really motivated..I have been taking long walks in the forest and I havent had any alcohol for a week.. I gues sthat could change tonight since I'm back in stockholm with a bunch of friends who all seem to want to go out all the time..but so far so good I feel great!