I just got a little epiphany..was listening to this song (at the gym) that reminded me of this guy I've been seeing on and off almost since I got to New York..He's really never going to be who I want him to be so today I decided not to give him any more chances. Every time I do he disapoints me and it's a new year and I can't deal with that shit anymore. I still haven't been able to figure him out and I don't think I am even intrested in it anymore...so good bye mr. model. You're amazingly hot and you have some great qualities (Yeah. ;-) )but its time I leave you behind. I never knew you, you neve rknew me (so say hello goodbye- as mr david gray would have put it) And you know as well as I do that we were never meant to be..maybe you have been clearer than me on that point. It's been fun..mostly not..but quite frankly I just can't deal with your unpredictableness anymore. (Just made that word up didn't I?)
I just had to write it down because I have given this guy way too many chances..and there's no more going around it..it's so over.
1/20/2008
No thanks...
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Babe, do you mind if I use your space to vent on my similar situation? Sometimes its good to put the words down somewhere, but not to actually send the letter...
We shall call her "Boobs". Names have been changed to protect the....hang on, she's not innocent though!
Boobs, read what Sanna wrote and then replace Mr Model with your name. I'm not sure what to think of your actions and your words. I don't know if you are intentionally lying or unknowingly dishonest...or just extremely disorganised. All I know is that for the last 6 months you've tortured my heart and tormented my mind, and I'm not going to be a sucker any longer. In short, I'm inclined to think you're full of shit.
If you're for real, you ARE a wonderful person, and I've tried so hard to only look at the good side of you, but the scales have tilted in the other direction now, and I can't ignore the irregularities in your reasonings and excuses and the manipulation.
I'll still try to consider you as a "friend", but I'm inclined to think that a stretch. In my mind you are now really just an aquaintance. Being the old man I am, and being on the receiving end as I have been, I believe I'm in a position to say "grow up" and not be labelled as patronising.
Thank you for the good times and the laughs and the "affection???" and "love???"...but it's time for Richard to say goodbye and hope for someone that appreciates him...and shows it.
Out
And Sanna, read "The ego booster" again when you next find yourself feelling in a similar mood to the one you were in when you wrote this post. Love you loads! x
PS. I'm only posting as Anon cause I can't understand what it's asking for in the other fields that are in Swedish!
Wow I hadn't read this response until now..looks like you have some hard feelings there..you know what? I dont even have that. all thats left for me is emptiness. I dont even care anymore you know? I 'm just..so over it. so over everything..even talking about him now..
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