Insanity

So this weekend has been crazy..As you could see from one of my posts below I was somewhat desperate for my Mr. Big to give me more attention. It was becoming a stupid obsession so on Friday during the roomie dinner I decided that I needed a distraction..Yes, I decided to contact Mr. Model. Mind you I haven't seen this guy in months and months but if there is someone whos made me feel strongly in the past its been him, so I decided that he could probably cure me (aka take my mind of Mr. Big).

So I sent him an innocent text and all of a sudden the ball was rolling again..next thing I knew i was wrapped up in his arms at a nightclub downtown and what happened after that..well Im sure its not that hard to figure out. The day after we spoke on the phone a few times and decided to meet up again to reprise the night before..and it was great..meanwhile Mr. Big was coming closer to town and was asking me to come out the hamptons with him..but suddenly i didnt fel as depserate for him. Seeing Mr. Model was just a great idea. i mean..you can call me mean and a user or whatever but id like to think that its pretty reciprocated..I mean mr model has played me in the past for sure..mr big is playing me now..why not just play that game back? So now theyre both in my life. I like them both...so it feels good.

Mr Timberlake can jump out the window..couldnt care less..and Mr Ambitious..im afraid Im not the least interested anymore..we used to have such a cute little thing going on for months..but it was all ruined and I cant seem to find that passion at all..dont even know if it was ever there..he was such a great guy but for some reason that doesnt seem to do it for me these days...