Back in New York!

Back in New York now..and back at work..I gave my 4 weeks notice to my boss this morning..it went so well. Im really glad.

Its been amazing being in Spain..the last few days were absolutely insane with pool parties and nightclubs with some friends of mine who came over! Viva la Vida! i burnt all of my pics on a cd and now it doesnt work..im so upset..i think i still have a few pics..but not like 200 more like 5. sucks soo bad..fucking technology and me.
I feel great being back though..somehow I kept having the feeling that I was missing out on my life over here..oh New York..always stuff happening here..how will i ever actually be able to leave, like leave-leave??

When I came back to new york my phone was overloaded with stupid texts from Mr. Big..yes stupid ones..they all said "how are you". Inventiveness? hello? Im starting to get sort of annoyed and disillusioned by him now..I mean..I think hes just pretty uncharming and weird right now..like whats his deal? what is he so afraid of? or what the fuck? I really dont get him and the more i text with mr. model the more i lean towards him..not that I need to choose.I think now since I came back and weve been texting i have been getting 3 more texts saying how are you..ehm.. i told im fine. Its his way of like starting up a conversation i guess..but sometimes i get the feeling that he might be writing the smae text to like 10 people...who knows.. Mr. Big never ever really did anything for me except give me hope that one day he might..im starting to realize its all his rules and he doesnt even have to try that hard..being away from him for this time has made me see it more clearly..who does he think he is? I used to be so obsessed with him..Im starting to realize its more my image in my head of him than the actual guy..hes not that much fun. oh well..we'll see..if he's in town i'll probably still see him tonight to give him one more chance..but my patience is running out a little bit.