Once you start again its hard to stop!

The last months have been so hectic. i have been doing something every second and i literally havent had a second to blog. I really forgot how much fun it can be! Ahhhhh so narcissistic! hahahaha!

I feel so much bette right now..its just that the last months have been the biggest emotional roller coaster of my life. My heart, my mind has been allover the place.


So as you all know i love to obsess about my so called love life...so heres the update on that:
I left without saying good bye to Mr.Big. It felt like the right thing to do. He didnt deserve any good byes from me. Im still kind of surprised by how much i cared about him..and im not going to deny that hes sometimes still on my mind- but in a different way. a more surreal and i guess bitter -i-know-its-really-over-and-i-was-ridiculous-for-ever-caring-about-him kind of way. It helps to know that he cant reach me. Not that i think he has tried. I'm sure he has tried to text me once or twice (my american number is cancelled). I just hope he's a little disturbed.but thats probably hoping too much.

Mr Model and i ended on fairly good terms..he'll always be a bit special for me but i dont think i could ever see him as anything else than a body anymore. I mean I used to like him so much...but this time around it was just different..he was a distraction-not an obsession..good to know that i can eventually move on..haha i actually posess that ability. Im hoping mr big will be nothing to me in a week or two..