Weeeeh!

I'm on top of the world today. And I feel that I deserve it. It's JUNE and its been rainy and cold for about a month in New York..but hey..what doesnt kill you makes you stronger..haha..good thing I got my sun fix from my months on Cayman :)

I have no particular reason for feeling this way today.. I guess I just feel more in control than before and thats a pretty good feeling. More in control of my feelings, more in control of what is going on around me. I feel more in control of Mr Workaholic because I feel that I left a bit of hope behind yesterday..and frankly it's so nice sometimes to just let go all expectations and hopes and just live in the moment. It is what it is. I think girls (or at least the girls I know) in general do that a lot more often than guys..we start making up stories in our heads, we make up futures and make boys we hardly even know (sometimes) into something they are not...and that's got to stop for my part. Another very small victory I guess is that after about 6 months Mr Ambitious might have let go of a little bit of anger surrounding me...I don't know..it's just a feeling form a very very small gesture and I just felt that it felt good...he was nothing but good to me and honestly I didnt't deserve him at the time..I wasn't very nice to him at all..in all seriousness we werent meant for eachother at all and that happens obviously..you start seeing someone that youre nothing like..but you learn form your mistakes.. But that's a whole different story.


Anywhoo...I feel good and I can't wait for tomorrow! Midsummer!!!